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Monday, 26 November 2007
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Four Months
Is it wrong to count the days 'til your free? Free from silly stupid rules. Im not counting funny, never count the month your in. four months 'til I can escape for a while. And they have no say in it. I can almost taste it. Secretly i dont think they want me to leave. I havent gone in for my permit test in a while, and everytime i remind them, nicely and i dont nag, they tell me that they are just way to busy. She does have three jobs ya know, is what I'm told.
I'm always told that. "I cant always do this or that, I have three jobs" Ok sorry...i have to do things on my own pretty soon. I just want a little help from my caretakers. Parents? one of them is. She tries. but its all so angry...Angry, anger
...if that makes sense...Four months...I had a dream that i was swing dancing with Mr. Bonejangles. He was wearing a zoot suit. i never knew skeletons could be so sexy in a zoot suit
. I love those dreams. Im so welcome to the world of shade
. great...i think im going crazy. I must be. Ah well...Four months...soon to be three. i love it. i can feel it. leaving for a while. i couldnt leave my brother. this place isnt bearable, it would be pure cruelty to leave him. I can do this. I can figure out what to do. I will. People i know give me strength. the courage to prove them wrong. I've got to try...right?
Thursday, 01 November 2007
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Why it Hurts...
Define secret:
se·cret
–adjective
1. done, made, or conducted without the knowledge of others: secret negotiations. 2. kept from the knowledge of any but the initiated or privileged: a secret password. 3. faithful or cautious in keeping confidential matters confidential; close-mouthed; reticent. 4. designed or working to escape notice, knowledge, or observation: a secret drawer; the secret police. 5. secluded, sheltered, or withdrawn: a secret hiding place. 6. beyond ordinary human understanding; esoteric.
thanx dictionary.com7. (of information, a document, etc.) a. bearing the classification secret. b. limited to persons authorized to use information documents, etc., so classified. Its been a while since ive kept or told my secrets. Oh dont worry Im not revealing anything.
but do you know what it means when someone tells you their secret? that means you are strong enough to keep it a secret, regardless of the rewards that may be given prior to its revalance or how angry you may get at the person. Smart enough to now what to do if it is revealed and how to react to it, cover it. and Worthy enough to know it. everyone has secrets. some worst than others. A secret is like a shadow candy. You cant see it, you know it may be tainted, but that doesnt stop it from being juicy.
sometimes we question who we told and if it was the right person to tell. We ache inside, we devote hours of sleepless nights to dwelling on it. "will they slip?"
"blackmail?"
"will they tell just because?" there are no secrets in small towns...everyone knows something. Thats why it hurts.
Tuesday, 09 October 2007
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ADventure ##1
Well, one day i decided to try and sing on a bus, however i seemed to have failed in doing so so this is my adventure in trying to get bus money, im not a bum...its just bus money...
well, this is a picture of a note on a door where i thought my uncle lived...
this is my general reaction...my uncle does not live there...
well, thats ok...as soon as i found out johnny, my brother spent our money...he had this to say
Duuuuuhh....sawwwy...duuuuhhh
defeated by the evil bus money, we decide to go home...and have evil
NAZI COOKIES!!!!
til next time.
Monday, 08 October 2007
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If you could change anything about the world, what would it be and why?
Oh jeeze, i'd change the "trust" issue we all have, everyone would be trustworthy and worth trusting...everything else would work itself out
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Monday, 01 October 2007
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...for how much longer?, Would'nt it be a fools move to believe that you'd be here forever? there is only so much that you can take. You know it...I know it...they know it...
Im sorry your being tested. Im sorry...but its almost done. All i have to do is follow for a while. Obey, just a little longer.
Focus.
I can do this...I've waited before. Patience is like game. I've won before...
Shit....I just lost.
I know i can wait in the dark...I know i can go on without touch. Ive done it before. I know I can.
i can sit and just wait. For hours...days...years...
...Can you?...
RebaQuez
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- Name: RebaQuez
- Birthday: 3/15/1990
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 6/13/2007
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I have an insane fear for Zombies, needles, subliminal messages, and pain. I love to have other people make me laugh or even make myself laugh with some of my many blonde moments, i LOVE really lame movies. I use lefthanded compliments as often as possible. I love to have fun, even if it means entertaining myself with the salt and pepper shakers reanacting Pirates of the Caribbean...Much is yet to learn about me
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